It's Been WAY Too Long

I haven't written on here since me and TJ first got back together and that was over a year ago. A LOT has happened since then.

Not long after me and TJ got back together I found out I was pregnant. Unfortunately it was't long after that miscarried. But in the time when I was pregnant me and TJ talked about me moving down there to SC to live together. So, in June of last year, I quit my job at Target and moved down here, which is a big reason why I want to get back into writing on here. We don't live near our family and I'm sure they would like to know what's going on at The Jackson House.

I have loved every minute of it. TJ is amazing and him and Dylan just light up my world. They mean everything to me. I stay at home with Dylan and we have so much fun. We're always trying to find something to do to keep us occupied. Luckily we have GREAT friends and the beach nearby so finding something to do is never hard.

TJ is on his 5th cycle of recruits. They will graduate in June and then at the beginning of July he will pick up his last cycle. And after graduation we'll start packing everything up and move to Cherry Point. I'm not really excited about going but I'm sure I will adjust and end up liking it. And hey, if not, TJ said he can ask for a new duty station in 2 years, so I'm still keeping my fingers crossed, we end up in Miramar. I'm ready to explore the West Coast.

Dylan is in T-Ball on the GA Bulldogs!!!! We certainly got lucky with that one. I'm the coach along with my friend Maggie. The kids are so fun to watch when they play. Tomorrow is our 3rd game and Dylan is looking forward to it. That kid could baseball everyday if he could. He's gonna be disappointed when the season is over, but the pool will be open by then and we're going to work on learning to swim this summer, so he should be fine.

We have also just registered Dylan for kindergarten this week and he can't stop telling anyone he meets that he gets to go to school soon. He'd be in heaven if he could go now and ride the bus. That's what he's most excited for.

As for me, I'm doing the same ol' thing everyday; housework, cooking, taking care of Dylan, and of course trying to be as involved as I can with things on base.

I guess that's about it for now but "I'll be back." LOL!!!!

It's About Time

Me and TJ are back together!!!!! YAY!! I'm so happy. I really care about and feel like he's the one. I know how he is though so I have to continue to be patient and hope he knows that I'll be here for him and that it's OK to let me in more than he has. I hope he doesn't get scared again. I don't know how to tell him not to be. To be honest though, I don't think I can. I think it's something he has to figure out on his own, which for me is harder than just telling him. I want to be able to him and him just believe me and it'll be OK, but that's not how it works. OK enough rambling. I'm off to get some things packed for this weekend. Me and Adam are going to visit TJ. Adam needs some more camis and wants to get them from Parris Island and he invited me to go with him so I can see TJ. What a nice guy! LOL

Busy but Fun

So I'm not that good about writing on here as I would like to be but I've been so busy with work that I haven't done much else, but here's an update.

The Target I work at is now open and it has been busy. Yesterday was my first full day on the salesfloor, since they have me working on the ad right now. There were people everywhere, buying up the cheap water and anthing they felt like was a good deal.

My car isn't working right now, which really sucks. I think the transmission is starting to go again. I am NOT happy. Thankfully my dad is going to help me out as far as financially. And then my mom and my friend Amber said they will help me get to and from work. TJ is in town this week and said he'll help too. I have some great friends.

The best part of my life right now is the fact that TJ is in town. He got here late Friday night and took me to Bahama Breeze to meet up with his sister and some of her friends. One of Carol's friends was introducing me and TJ to someone that came late and said, "This Carol's brother, TJ and his girlfriend....." and then TJ just said my name and didn't correct her or anything. AS stupid as it may sounds but it made me happy that he didn't correct her bc in the past he has done corrected people on it. A little while later Carol was introducing me and TJ (although not directly) and one of them asked if I was his wife and she said, "One day." It was so cute. I don't think TJ caught it.

An hour after we were seated, the waitress finally took our order (a mistake on the restaurant's part for only giving one waitress to a party of 20, which was us, along with several other tables). After we ordered, lots of us started noticing that people that ordered after us were receiving their dinner before us. Then when they finally bring us our dinner TJ gets his fork out and is ready to chow down and they have everyone's dinner except for mine and his. What the hell? We ordered pasta. Ours dinners were the easiest out of everyones. How did Carol get her steak before us? LOL!!! Everyone was kinda shocked and then felt bad eating when we didn't have any, but we didn't have to wait to much longer to get ours. TJ ordered Lobster and Shrimp Pasta and when they gave us our dinner, he didn't have any Lobster. It's in the title. How do you forget that?

After we eat, we have to leave because we promised Adam we would meet him and Ashley at the bar. When we got there Adam and TJ started talking like see each other every day. If you didn't know it you wouldn't be able to guess that they've only met each other a handful of times before last night and that the last time they hung out was over a year ago. LOL!! They were having a good ol' time. Thank god Ashley was there. Then I could leave the boys alone to have some guy time and me and Ashley could talk and go sit at the bar. Every so often TJ would come over and check on us, sometimes ordering a drink others just to see us and then go back to play pool. And the things he would say to me and Ashley had us cracking up. And at the end of the night he even wasked me to dance (and if you know TJ that's rare of him to do). It was such a great night. I wish it didn't have to end, but there's always next time

How long has it been?

I know I never post. I guess it's about time that I should. Not too much with me has changed except for my job. I'm still with Target but I'm at the new one in Winder. OK, it's technically it's not in Winder, it's in Bethlehem but no one knows where Bethlehem is unless they live there or know someone that lives there. Yesterday was my second day there and so far it doesn't seem too bad, even though my first just about sucked. It's planorama, which is when a whole bunch of stores get meet at a new store and help set up the store before it opens. The people that I have met that will be working at the new store seem nice but I don't think they'll ever replace my Flowery Branch crew. Everyone at that store is amazing and there is a bond between everyone that is so rare to find, especially in a place with so many employees. I miss everyone already and there's a part of me that wishes I hadn't transferred. I know that this is a new thing and just something I have to get used to though.

On another note, I've been talking to Tyler a lot more lately. It all started when he came into town and came with me when I went to the airport with Kristin to say goodbye as headed off to Italy. Thank god he was there. If he wasn't I probably would have bawled my eyes out instead of cry just a little. He came into town the weekends after that and has taken me out and been really sweet to me. He told me his feelings towards me (which totally shocked me) and how great he thinks I am. However, he did say he's not ready for a relationship and let anyone in. Who can blame him after all the hell Whitnet put him through? I also am not ready for a relationship because I still care about TJ, who has been calling me more. Right now I'm OK with Tyler not wanting anything but if he changes my mind, I don't know what to do. It wouldn't be fair to him because I still care about TJ, but at the same I don't know if TJ will ever get past the fear of getting hurt and let me in. Deep down I really feel he is the one, but I can't wait forever either. Sometimes I don't know what the right thing to do is

Not much of anything

I know I haven't been on much, but there hasn't really been much to report. I've been busy with work and that's pretty much it. I happen to have a little bit of extra money so I'm able to buy some better gifts this year and that excites me. I've been so tight on money the past few years that it's nice to be able to buy to gifts for people. Well I'm out for now, but I'll be back later

When is it my turn?

It seems like everyone I know is either getting married or having babies except for me. Don't get me wrong, I am SO happy for everyone but with everyone's good news, it just reminds me that none of that is happening to me, nor do I know if it will anytime soon and that makes me sad. I know some of it is jealousy and I'm aware of that but this is something I have been thinking about for a while. I'm not getting any younger, I'm almost 25 (which I know isn't old, but when everyone around you is experiencing these wonderful events it makes me feel like I'm running out of time) and sometimes I wonder if it'll ever happen for me. I hope it does (and with a particular person would be nice) and when will it happen. I'm so ready for that next phase in my life and constantly think about what that would be like. Nothing I can do about it, I guess but I had to get it out

Getting Started

Kristin told me about this site and I thought I'd check it out. I think it'l be a great way to keep with everyone, especially since everyone seems to be going off in different directions. I'll do my best to keep up this but sometimes things can get crazy, but when that happens I usually end doing something dumb and those can be some funny stories. So check back. You never know what you may find out.

Have a great day!!!